Think you got it all good, next thing you know, your in the slums;
Go ’round like its alright, but feels like a knife in your state of mind;
Hold your head high, even though your mind is all low;
Do what you do to take away your pain, but it always leaves you the same;
Wake up everyday not ready to face the day ahead of you;
Its a sickening fear inside you, that you don’t know how to tell anyone else;
Its darkness wraps around spine, towards your mind, and spreads through you like a disease and leaves you without a state of mind.
The top is far, and you’ve been stuck at the bottom far too long;
The light barely shines toward your direction, the hope is weak;
Great ambition, and so many love you, so why are you so weak;
Life passes you by, and you struggle to keep your feet;
No one seems to understand you, and you wonder why it’s like this;
Your just so busy, and there is no time for rest, it makes you weak;
You feel like your fighting a war, but what war are you fighting;
No one seems to understand, nor do you seem to understand life;
It’s a complicated matter, but it tears your soul apart;
Your lost and it’s been years, can’t seem to find yourself;
But this pain feels like infinity.
Been a rough few years, looked up to God prayed that he remove the enemies from my life;
And before you it, I started losing friends, left and right, it just don’t feel right;
You believe in these people around you, and they succeed an then you just ain’t shit no more;
Then when your falling down there’s no one around, then they still expect everything from you;
Now I just say fuck’em, and think ain’t it funny how shit change around.
Experiencing little kid things, now we growing older and experiencing a little more difficult things;
One thing to another thing, ain’t it something, now it’s time to come up and rise on some things;
Come on, bring out your hopes and dreams, and work to achieve them;
If you ain’t got dreams, you ain’t got nothing;
It’s all ambition, motivation, and dedication;
Focus yourself, and live your life!
Maybe it is all good, maybe it is going bad;
Good days and bad days, but it’s all still so real;
So many memories to learn from, living fast, so I ignore;
Cell phone going ding, ding … I just hit ignore, yeah;
Remembering back in the day, use to all be close;
It all seemed right, now everythings far far away, so lost;
Now it is just forget everything else, live your life;
Shit, now I just sit here and contemplate;
I can’t think, am I doing this for them or me?;
I know it is real, but I’m so gone;
So I contemplate, so I contemplate.
Oh, lord I can’t complain, she game;
Yeah, she a school girl, cool girl
She dressin’ sexy, she lookin’ for love
Hangin’ out with them boys and they play you like a fool
Always seein’ you, trying to figure you out
Damn, you look so good, but I see through you
You always thinkin’ about that one dude you caught up in, damn
All those one’s that lied, the ones you let smash
Now you see them all round school, and they won’t look
But why else you think he hit it and forgot about it
That’s cause your mind don’t match your ass
Stop losing your balance, get back up
Then look at the bigger picture, these dudes ain’t shit
They ignoring the finest, with them you a dime
Shit with me you a buck fifty.
Oh, lord I can’t complain, she game.
Yeah, fell in-love awhile back, we were friends before love came around but we knew there was something;
You had your relationships before me, and I had my relationships before you, spent time together before anything actually happened, and I knew you had your falls;
You had your share of spoiled love’s, so did I and we were just waiting for the right moment to fall in-love, and it was coming;
I was just worried it would ruin our friendship, and destroy everything we had because it was something I didn’t want to lose;
It was summer time, it couldn’t be any better, it was so clear, I wanted to stay in this moment forever;
Hope was beginning to rise, your starting to see a real smile, in this moment it seemed like it would not rain;
But everything ended so fast, it was looking like my rise or fall, sunlight faded to clouds;
I know to this day, you don’t believe me baby, and I hate it because it would take a whole lot of medication to realize what we use to have.
Dedicated to sm