State Of Mind.

Think you got it all good, next thing you know, your in the slums;
Go ’round like its alright, but feels like a knife in your state of mind;
Hold your head high, even though your mind is all low;
Do what you do to take away your pain, but it always leaves you the same;
Wake up everyday not ready to face the day ahead of you;
Its a sickening fear inside you, that you don’t know how to tell anyone else;
Its darkness wraps around spine, towards your mind, and spreads through you like a disease and leaves you without a state of mind.

Infinity.

The top is far, and you’ve been stuck at the bottom far too long;
The light barely shines toward your direction, the hope is weak;
Great ambition, and so many love you, so why are you so weak;
Life passes you by, and you struggle to keep your feet;
No one seems to understand you, and you wonder why it’s like this;
Your just so busy, and there is no time for rest, it makes you weak;
You feel like your fighting a war, but what war are you fighting;
No one seems to understand, nor do you seem to understand life;
It’s a complicated matter, but it tears your soul apart;
Your lost and it’s been years, can’t seem to find yourself;
But this pain feels like infinity.

Who’s Who

Been a rough few years, looked up to God prayed that he remove the enemies from my life;
And before you it, I started losing friends, left and right, it just don’t feel right;
You believe in these people around you, and they succeed an then you just ain’t shit no more;
Then when your falling down there’s no one around, then they still expect everything from you;
Now I just say fuck’em, and think ain’t it funny how shit change around.

Dream Chasing

Experiencing little kid things, now we growing older and experiencing a little more difficult things;
One thing to another thing, ain’t it something, now it’s time to come up and rise on some things;
Come on, bring out your hopes and dreams, and work to achieve them;
If you ain’t got dreams, you ain’t got nothing;
It’s all ambition, motivation, and dedication;
Focus yourself, and live your life!

Contemplate

Maybe it is all good, maybe it is going bad;
Good days and bad days, but it’s all still so real;
So many memories to learn from, living fast, so I ignore;
Cell phone going ding, ding … I just hit ignore, yeah;
Remembering back in the day, use to all be close;
It all seemed right, now everythings far far away, so lost;
Now it is just forget everything else, live your life;
Shit, now I just sit here and contemplate;
I can’t think, am I doing this for them or me?;
I know it is real, but I’m so gone;
So I contemplate, so I contemplate.

Can’t Complain, She Game

Oh, lord I can’t complain, she game;

Yeah, she a school girl, cool girl
She dressin’ sexy, she lookin’ for love
Hangin’ out with them boys and they play you like a fool
Always seein’ you, trying to figure you out
Damn, you look so good, but I see through you
You always thinkin’ about that one dude you caught up in, damn
All those one’s that lied, the ones you let smash
Now you see them all round school, and they won’t look
But why else you think he hit it and forgot about it
That’s cause your mind don’t match your ass
Stop losing your balance, get back up
Then look at the bigger picture, these dudes ain’t shit
They ignoring the finest, with them you a dime
Shit with me you a buck fifty.

Oh, lord I can’t complain, she game.

Faded Memories, The One That Got Away

Yeah, fell in-love awhile back, we were friends before love came around but we knew there was something;

You had your relationships before me, and I had my relationships before you, spent time together before anything actually happened, and I knew you had your falls;

You had your share of spoiled love’s, so did I and we were just waiting for the right moment to fall in-love, and it was coming;

I was just worried it would ruin our friendship, and destroy everything we had because it was something I didn’t want to lose;

It was summer time, it couldn’t be any better, it was so clear, I wanted to stay in this moment forever;

Hope was beginning to rise, your starting to see a real smile, in this moment it seemed like it would not rain;

But everything ended so fast, it was looking like my rise or fall, sunlight faded to clouds;

I know to this day, you don’t believe me baby, and I hate it because it would take a whole lot of medication to realize what we use to have.

Dedicated to sm

Dreammaker

Dreams have risen, pain has weakened, mistakes have been forgotten;

Dreamtaker has been destroyed, dreammaker has been born;

I’ll put memories away, but I won’t forget what I have learned;

Yes, it’s been far too long, days were just too dark;

Now my voice will be heard, I will no longer be hidden by darkness;

For in the light, I trust that there is a new beginning;

She touched my hand, I felt the tears, held them back so she wouldn’t see my fear;

But for in the moment, I know what mistake I shall never make again;

For I now know, the best time to realize what you have is while you have it, not after.

 

I’ll continue.

Depression suffocates the soul, and blinds the mind;

I am who I am, and if no one can accept the fact, they aren’t worth it;

I have tried , and I have tried to make people happy;

I never seem to be good enough, even though my heart keeps trying;

Broken heart and weakened trust, I’ll still continue on my way;

I’ll find that person I can call my wonder wall one day;

For now it’s finding out who I am, and then sharing it with a loved one;

Mistakes are mistakes, tears are tears, first loves are first loves;

It’s all about taking your time, finding that person who takes your breath away;

Even though these past things people have said, they keep running through my head;

It’s time to put up that wall, and move on, live your life to the fullest;

They told me I wouldn’t be able to do it, be here I am, and I’ll continue.

 

25th hour, it’s now or never.

It’s hard in this life sometimes but you’ve got to get your shit together;

I mean this generation is corrupt and we all screw ourselves over;

All I keep hearing is sense sex got easier to get, love got harder to find;

It’s a true fact but then you’ve got to look at yourself, we are the one’s that cause this;

Girl’s say there isn’t any good guys left, but hey, you left them in the friend zone;

I mean it’s hard to commit to something at this age but some people do it;

If your stuck, a lot of other people are too, your not the only one;

Yeah, I like partying and having a good time, but honestly;

I ain’t about a ONE TIME THING, it’s practically pointless;

I am down for a real relationship, you know;

Don’t expect to last forever but atleast for a bit;

Relationship’s now a days, last two weeks if your lucky;

Or they are longer, and your both miserable through out that time;

We all just need to take a step in the right direction, take a glance at the future;

And not let our young minds, run our success in the future, think about it.